A section from the book 'From Copper to Gold' the Life of Dorothy Baker I'm reading now. I can't recommend this book enough. Read it. and then read it again.
She is recounting what she heard from Shoghi Effendi on pilgrimage...
'There is a very close connection between the souls beyond and souls here. This connection depends upon certain difficult conditions - concentration, purity of heart, purity of motive. It will be possible to communicate, but do not attempt to experiment now.
One can even smell the presence of these souls. The Master said, "I can smell the spirit and the fragrance of the writer from this letter, when I opened it."
The Supreme Concourse are beings of whom we have no conception, but it includes souls of people who have been very devoted and other beings as well of whom we are not aware. The higher the position the greater the influence.
They rush to the assistance of the sincere servants who arise now.
We need to develop greater concentration and purity in prayer. Prayer and action attract the assistance.
God assures each one that every act is a magnet for the Supreme Concourse.
The Master said..."As to the question that the holy and spiritual souls influence, help and guide the creatures after they have cast off their elemental mold, this is an established truh of the Baha'i's."
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Sunday, November 30, 2008
closer than our life vein
I am trying an experiment this week.
Reading ‘From copper to gold’ the life of Dorothy Baker, courtesy of darling Tanya who gave it to me as I was leaving Haifa two weeks ago, and it is one of those books that is placed in your lap at the right place at the right time, it speaks to me…and one of the tips that Martha Root told Dorothy was that if there was a problem that you just could not solve, use the Tablet of Ahmad 9 times a day for a week and it will be resolved by the end of it.
Of course, I am a bit hesitant to use it for my so called ‘problems’ which I am sure are nothing compared to what the Hands of the Cause had to face in those early years…but I am trying it out anyway, mainly for spiritual strength and clarity of direction and purpose, I am faced with many decisions about my future path of service… and need some clear guidance….don’t we all…so I am on day four…and I have to say its incredible…my mood, my attitude to work, to life in Shanghai, is shifting and changing. I am beginning to truly enjoy myself and 'arrive' here so to speak, and beautiful moments are coming my way.
Take today for example, I had a few of my fellow colleagues from school come over for a devotional, and one friend, as she saw the picture of Abdu’l-Baha as a young man on my table top said,
“That is the same man who came to me in a dream years and years ago. He was gesturing gently for me to come closer to him. He had grey blue eyes, an authority and power about him with this absolute gentleness. He had a beard and was wearing a white robe and turban... I always wanted to see him again. And that... that is him.”
We read the Tablet of Ahmad together after all shedding a few tears of awe, excitement, and gratitude, and she said “When you said that prayer I was transported back in time. I could see the surroundings…" and she continued to describe what sounded like Persia in the time of Baha’u’llah…
Wow. Just thinking about today sends shivers down my spine. Good shivers…shivers of rememberance, that the spiritual world really is closer than we think, closer than our life vein, and it’s intermingling with us in this physical world all the time…did we but know…
Saturday, November 22, 2008
The Greatest Length
waiting in the longest EL AL cue ever…I am stopped by the rather aggressive Israeli red head security guard who doesn’t look a day over 20 but whose tone is of a 50 year old body builder
‘Yes. Hello’ she forces a smile at me
‘Hi’ I am nervous already. Why is that? I’m not about to smuggle drugs out the country or hide a bomb in my suitcase, but I start to feel like I am guilty just by her attitude to me…
‘So can I see your ticket?’
Problem number one.
‘Well, you see, it’s an e-ticket and I can’t find the bit of paper anywhere.’
She gives me another glare behind her glasses. Not impressed. But hey, who invented e-tickets anyway…it’s a flimsy bit of paper, whatever happened to the good old chunky ticket folder thing …
I try to smile.
‘I’m sure I had it in here. I’m really sorry, but I am going to Beijing. I have my passport.’ She snatches it off me and flips through a few pages. She sees that I have an Israeli visa that was outdated from when my service ended back in June.
‘Do you have a visa?’
‘No. I don’t need one. I was just here for 6 days, and you can do that on a New Zealand passport. It’s fine.’
She doesn’t like me one bit. I can tell. I start to get all jittery.
‘What was the purpose of your visit?’
‘I was at a conference.’
What kind of conference?
Not too sure how much I should say…
‘A Baha’i conference’
‘Bahai? Are you bahai?’
‘Yes’
‘Can I see your id?’
Problem no 2
‘You see, my wallet got stolen last week when I was back in Shanghai, it had my id in I so I don’t have anything.’
It’s true I did loose it riding on my bike last week…but right now it sounds like the most pathetic lie.
She sees the paper bag I am holding in my other hand
‘What is that?’
This?’
Oh God, I think to myself. Why did I not pack this in my suitcase, I didn’t want it to bend…and I thought the paper bag was enough of a disguise…
‘It’s in Arabic?’ She says rather shocked
‘Ah yes. It’s a protection symbol. It’s the Greatest Name. It was given to me by a friend.’
Mistake no 3.
Her ears prick up.
‘A friend gave it to you? Who was your friend?’
By now I am so nervous, common sense is out the window.
‘Vafa. My good friend Vafa.’
Vafa? She repeats it like its on America’s most wanted.
Oh great one Chantelle. Just tell the Israeli officials you were given an Arabic gift by a girl with an Iranian name…just what they wanted to hear…
I try to recover from my big mouth
‘It’s a gift. I know where she got it. It’s safe, it’s a book center with all Baha’i books. Really it’s nothing bad. It’s a protection symbol. Ironic isn’t it.’
She is not impressed by my attempt to make a joke out of this situation
‘Ok. So, Chantelle (she says as she reads my passport) when were you born?
‘Ah’ I am so nervous I nearly forget
‘Ah ah oh 16th of febuary 1984.’ Phew
‘And when was your passport issued.’ What? I think to myself. How should I know that? What is this? Jeopardy the quiz show?
‘Umm I don’t know. Ten years ago?’ stabbing in the dark…
‘Ok. Miss Brader. Please wait here.’
My tail hangs between my legs.
She brings out another guy who questions me even more
‘So what was your conference about?
I wanted to say ‘that’s confidential’ but I was stuck in the mud
‘Media and development.’
‘Can I see any documents you have from this conference?’
Ahhh…ok….a bit awkward I thought…I fumble around my bag and finally find the invitation letter.
He reads it.
‘Ok Miss Brader. Please come with me.’
What? More? I thought that would be enough.
Bag searching time.
As they open up my suitcase and take out all my clothes and belongings it feels as though they are tearing open my insides…I feel violated in some weird way. But I try not to show it...
They find an unopened battery charger, bought in Israel.
Suspicious object they think.
Where did you get this from?
The Hadar in Haifa.
Hadar? They look at each other suspiciously, was that another arab word? Ah im digging myself into a hole.
Why would I buy a battery charger and not use it made for Israeli plugs?
‘I have the adapter somewhere.’ My mind went back to the hilarious story of buying this thing. On the way to Bahji and I realise my digital camera batteries are dead, so as Sarah and Tanya grab a coffee I run into this dinky electronics store in the Hadar to buy 2 normal AA batteries. the shopkeeper wont let me
‘No no no,’ in his think Jewish accent, ‘no I wont give it to you, a waste. One picture and then kaput. Here here, look I give you this, he hands me the charger. Much better. Special price.’
‘But I need to take pictures now, Im going back to China tomorrow.’
‘China? My daughter is in China.Ok ok. Since I know you are there and she is there…I throw in these for free. ‘
He puts four aa batteries and an adapter on the counter, time is running out and I just want to get on the sherut and go to Bahji and get out of this smelly shop…so I buy the charger….reluctantly parting with my last shekels…
Back into this moment
They take the battery charger away, place it into a bomb threat bag and scan it in a different area. I want to laugh…what a saga…in so many ways…more economical in the long run….hmmmm more of a pain in the butt in the long run…
But I force a smile, and then they take me into a private cubicle.
Wow. My first actual full on body search…and I thought the bag was evasive
Its with clothes all on thankfully. But her plastic glove hands go on the outside of just about every part of my body, inner and outer thighs, waist, tops of my pants, even a little bit under the seam, under my arm pits…I start to giggle….its just so awkward.
‘Just think of it as a really bad massage,’ says the female security guard searching me with her thick Russian accent.
After my shoes are scanned and my jacket. They tell me its ok to go now.
What an experience.
And now, back in Shanghai, at my school, the day after I got back.
A teacher saw it on my desk,
‘What is this?’
‘It’s a Baha’i symbol. It means ‘O Thou Glory of the All-Glorious’
‘It’s beautiful.’
Yes it is I think to myself, and it certainly took an adventure to get it here.
‘Can I have it?’
I am rather stunned.
‘Of course.’
‘I want to put it on the front of my door. I want everyone who walks past to see it.’
Wow. Gob-smacked.
So now, on the front of my non-baha’i co-workers door in Pudong is the Greatest Name.
There is a silver lining in everything…
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
around and around
back to shanghai after what seemed to be a flashback in time.
Haifa.
Akka.
That Spot.
wow.
I am so grateful that it happened, as brief as it was, it was just the right time for me to go back to that world I lived in for 18months, to see it with a fresh pair of eyes again.
It is like living in a dream being there. the bright blue sky, the stillness and serenity. the Shrines.
the people
the love
the support
the understanding
the striving
there is something magical about the world centre,
as if time stands still,
you can just live in the moment, reflect, breathe deeper than usual...
it was the most perfect of timings for me. needed some breathing space from the hussle and bussle of shanghai, or mainly...my head and the madness of my thoughts!
learning to stay in the present...rather than obsessing about the future...hmmmm working on that one...its funny how there is this constant battle of 'where do i want to be?' 'am i doing enough'
i want to be able to keep that stillness, that fullness, that absolute surrender one feels when you are in the Shrines, with me, at my work, as I walk around the crowded streets of Shanghai.
A process of remembering who we are, our essence, and forgetting.
never quite 'forgetting' as such, more like becoming clouded with other issues, or experiences that trick me into seeming 'important'...the dross of self getting in the way...i felt like for those 6 days i could clear myself again...how to keep it with me...thats the next part...
even though i have only been back three days...i can feel the dust accumulating again...the stress of work and doing a play with two week's rehearsal, the bouts of loneliness, although i have support around...i guess thats the reality of where I am at, the 'twenties something' angst of not quite being a 'grown up', cant really rely on mum or dad anymore, not quite stable in my career, or in myself and my service ...always wanting more, but hey, its small steps.
if thats what i learnt in the last 6 days...from small steps comes big change.
we hear that all the time but for some reason i got it on a different level this time round.
but it takes time
...
why is patience so hard to develop?? ...
Haifa.
Akka.
That Spot.
wow.
I am so grateful that it happened, as brief as it was, it was just the right time for me to go back to that world I lived in for 18months, to see it with a fresh pair of eyes again.
It is like living in a dream being there. the bright blue sky, the stillness and serenity. the Shrines.
the people
the love
the support
the understanding
the striving
there is something magical about the world centre,
as if time stands still,
you can just live in the moment, reflect, breathe deeper than usual...
it was the most perfect of timings for me. needed some breathing space from the hussle and bussle of shanghai, or mainly...my head and the madness of my thoughts!
learning to stay in the present...rather than obsessing about the future...hmmmm working on that one...its funny how there is this constant battle of 'where do i want to be?' 'am i doing enough'
i want to be able to keep that stillness, that fullness, that absolute surrender one feels when you are in the Shrines, with me, at my work, as I walk around the crowded streets of Shanghai.
A process of remembering who we are, our essence, and forgetting.
never quite 'forgetting' as such, more like becoming clouded with other issues, or experiences that trick me into seeming 'important'...the dross of self getting in the way...i felt like for those 6 days i could clear myself again...how to keep it with me...thats the next part...
even though i have only been back three days...i can feel the dust accumulating again...the stress of work and doing a play with two week's rehearsal, the bouts of loneliness, although i have support around...i guess thats the reality of where I am at, the 'twenties something' angst of not quite being a 'grown up', cant really rely on mum or dad anymore, not quite stable in my career, or in myself and my service ...always wanting more, but hey, its small steps.
if thats what i learnt in the last 6 days...from small steps comes big change.
we hear that all the time but for some reason i got it on a different level this time round.
but it takes time
...
why is patience so hard to develop?? ...
Friday, November 7, 2008
Sitting on the sitcom.....
I went to a writers workshop a few weekends back with the director of 'Friends' - they flew him over just for this. The workshop was exploring the possibility of a sitcom based in shanghai following the lives of expats...a brilliant idea and has the potential to do so well all over the world as more and more of us have lived in another culture at some point in our lives and now the hilarious interactions that can occur. As part of the workshop we had to submit our own idea of a scene for the expat show based roughly on our own experience of living in shanghai...so i wanted to share mine with you (the female character is not me....well there may be some elements of truth...)
The Lane House Hunt (I imagine the lead character to be a women aged around 25-30. She could be a really high maintenance girl, high heels 'new yorker' which would make it even funnier. This is a work in progress so please excuse its half finished state!)
Voice Over:
It all began in the real estate office. Or at least on the way to find one….
Walking along the streets, day two of my new life in Shanghai…
“Lookie lookie. Lady. Bags, watch.” A crowd of ten women fling bits of paper of Gucci copy bags in my face.
“Ah no thank you” I try to get passed them…
“Just lookie. Bags watch”
“No.” I try to stay calm.
“Come, come, bags watch..”
This then continues to happen for the next five minutes at every street crossing ...I meet the dreaded phrase.. “bags watch bags watch bags watch’ like a broken record on ground hog day.
‘Look, can’t you see. I have a watch. I have a bag. I’m perfectly happy with them both. Now if you would please just leave me….’
‘lookie lookie. Bags watch.’
‘ahhhhh’ Beginning to loose it now…
“No. please let go.” She starts dragging my arm down the ally way, I’m freaking out by now, I get my weapon, my lonely planet phrase book out and scramble for a word to fend them off…
“BOO YAOW” I shout out, as if I won the jackpot. “BOO YAOW BOO YAOW BOO YAOW!!!” (my way of spelling how No sounds in chinese, not the correct way i must add...)
“Boo yaow? Awu za ba ” she yells some shanghainese slang (good for nothing tough girl) to me as I walk away.
I am irriate but then I see the neon bubble tea sign luring me in….and all the stress goes away…who knew small chewy balls at the bottom of your drink could be so weirdly satisfying…
I find a hole in the wall which seems to have pictures and prices of apartments outside. I step inside.
The air is thick with smoke. The two men look at me like they don’t want business. One is clipping his toenails whilst reading the newspaper. The other is eating noodles like it’s a drink. The wall paper is falling off the walls, there are turtles crawling around a small bowl next the front door wanting to get out. Right now, in this situation, I can totally relate to you buddy.
A waving cat ornament greets me then suddenly the arm falls off. Perhaps its an omen.
“Ah…lowfan suuu, apartment,.old lanehouse….’ I stutter in my appalling pilmser Chinese.
‘mao.’ (no)
“Mao lowfan suu? But..?” I point to the pictures and prices on the wall.
‘Mao. Mao. mao.’ He yells without ever looking at me once. He lights up another cigarette and turns the page of his paper.
Ok. I get the hint…
I look up a number of an agent I found on a website. I give him a call.
‘hi there. I am interested in seeing the old lanehouse apartment you have advertised on craigslist. The two bedroom in French concession?’
‘Dwea yes yes. When u have time?’
‘Ah well anytime from now is good.’
So about fifteen minutes later he picks me up. I’m hoping this is it.
A tiny man arrives in a suit a bit too short for him, I can see his white socks, on a tiny push bike.
“hello madam. Please get on.”
Are you joking I think?
“Ah ok.”
My butt is going to break this thing. I am double the size of him and the tyre is going to burst any minute I think to myself.
“Ah is it ok to hold your waist?” It’s all a bit awkward by now. Personal space cultural boundaries crossing.
“yes yes.”
He struggles to get the bike moving, it twists and turns from side to side..i’m going to fall, it’s all over…
“ohhh you very heavy!!” he laughs…i try to play along..
“ ah yes (damn those steam buns I think to myself)…maybe we should get a taxi?”
“no no.”
I bite my tongue.
We weave through the traffic and I’m having heart palpitations. People stare as we go along, pointing and laugh. I’m not pointing at you, wearing you PJ’s with your tshirt rolled up, stomach showing in broad daylight I think to myself.
“Here we are.”
We pull up at an old lanehouse.
“This is very nice. I think you like?”
I bloody hope so, I think to myself as I waddle along clutching my aching butt.
We walk up five sets of floors, through jungles of junk, you name it.
Finally we get there. I am panting and waddling.
The door opens.
The landlord greets us with a Ni hao
“Do we take off our shoes?”
“no no.”
I look around. I see why. The floor hasn’t been cleaned in about two years. But the place has character. And, it’s a lanehouse after all. That’s the key. That’s the ‘in thing’ right. That’s what all the ex-pats say.
“So you like?”
“Ah yes. But I can’t see any kitchen. Or bathroom?”
“Yes. That is because you share it with the neighbours.”.
“Ohhh.,.” My heart sinks,
The landlord then takes me down to see it. The kitchen is black with oil stains, an old lady smiles as she fries her noodles humming to the Beijing opera playing in the background. A hear a man cough and spit on the next level down from us…I shudder..
“Ahh. Tell him thank you, but I really need to have my own.”
“Ok.”
So then we go, on the bike again. Butt numb by this point.
Next stop, lanehouse number 2. Third floor. Clean. Can you believe it.
“The landlord give you special price. He likes you. I told him you are from new Zealand. He likes New Zealand his son studies there.”
The landlord smiles and speaks to me non stop in Shanghainese with the occasional ‘Lord of the rings. Lord of the Rings. Auckland. Auckland. Beautiful beautiful’
Yes yes thank you thank you but I want to see your apartment I think to myself.
Then I see it. In the corner of the living room. The kitchen. Yes it is there. But what is it surrounding it? A shower cubicle? Really?
“Yes. To keep the smell out. We don’t want the smell of our cooking in the room.”
“But surely…”
There goes that one..
So close. And yet so far away..
Apartment three.
Top floor. Nice landlord. Speaks English always a useful. Place is big. Spacious quiet. This is it I think to myself. This is it.
We step in the kitchen. It’s big. Clean. Wow.
Then I see it. A bathtub, a sink and a toilet. Yes that’s right. In the kitchen? I blink again….really?
‘Yes. But it’s fine. We have installed a curtain to separate, so you can be cooking and not disturb the person having a bath.”
Hmmmm. I am beginning to give up my shanghai lanehouse dream....maybe I am just too much of a westerner…
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
locked out in the lane
had the most incredible experience,
yet again.
locked out of my flat, i sat in my lane, with the next door neighbours kids running around playing jump rope. of course i had to join in.
they practised their english phrases on me
'good morning' (even though its clearly evening, but hey, so cute!)
'how are you?'
'nice to meet you'
'my name is peter'
'my name is kitty'
(gotta love the english names they choose for themselves, the best one yet i have heard is 'mattress'...why oh why...)
after an hour, and clearly my temporary room mate was not back with the key (must get spare set...) seven year old kitty and her grandma busy knitting away as she watched us play, invited me up for dinner.
wow.
up flights and flights of rickety old stairs, past old women cooking outside their front door, men in their pj's watching tv inside a room which was literally half a floor, like being john malkovich's 9 /2 floor) he couldnt even sit up in his bed, then into their home.
which consists of
one room, the kitchen table smack bang to the toilet,to the sink, and then a double bed which the whole family share, a cupboard, a fridge, and drawings in crayon all over the wall of stick figures in dresses, courtesy of kitty i'm sure.
the grandfather greeted me, struggling to get up off his seat at the table as he has a crippled leg, and on the table was an array of vegetables in small bowls, and crab....
of course they give me the crab first, and i have no idea how to eat it (i know its shocking but i have never eaten crab in its shell before) i looked like an idiot, but kitty helped me, explaining to me in detail in chinese what to do, i nodded my head and pretended i understood everything.
i was just amazed at this family
living right next to me, in a room the size of my bedroom and thats their entire home, and yet they are so happy, their eyes shine and sparkle.
i felt so honoured to sneak a peak into the life of real shanghainese, none of the glitz and glamour of Huaihai road, but the real working class, and how they live. that's the true shanghai.
i see kitty each day. playing in the back of the recyling cart in a tutu dress with fairy wings. what an image. the gritty grey walls, this old bike and cart, and this pink fairy happily playing.
these children don't have a backyard, wow, i am so spoilt as a nz'der....
but there is a lot one can find hidden in these tiny lanes...
yet again.
locked out of my flat, i sat in my lane, with the next door neighbours kids running around playing jump rope. of course i had to join in.
they practised their english phrases on me
'good morning' (even though its clearly evening, but hey, so cute!)
'how are you?'
'nice to meet you'
'my name is peter'
'my name is kitty'
(gotta love the english names they choose for themselves, the best one yet i have heard is 'mattress'...why oh why...)
after an hour, and clearly my temporary room mate was not back with the key (must get spare set...) seven year old kitty and her grandma busy knitting away as she watched us play, invited me up for dinner.
wow.
up flights and flights of rickety old stairs, past old women cooking outside their front door, men in their pj's watching tv inside a room which was literally half a floor, like being john malkovich's 9 /2 floor) he couldnt even sit up in his bed, then into their home.
which consists of
one room, the kitchen table smack bang to the toilet,to the sink, and then a double bed which the whole family share, a cupboard, a fridge, and drawings in crayon all over the wall of stick figures in dresses, courtesy of kitty i'm sure.
the grandfather greeted me, struggling to get up off his seat at the table as he has a crippled leg, and on the table was an array of vegetables in small bowls, and crab....
of course they give me the crab first, and i have no idea how to eat it (i know its shocking but i have never eaten crab in its shell before) i looked like an idiot, but kitty helped me, explaining to me in detail in chinese what to do, i nodded my head and pretended i understood everything.
i was just amazed at this family
living right next to me, in a room the size of my bedroom and thats their entire home, and yet they are so happy, their eyes shine and sparkle.
i felt so honoured to sneak a peak into the life of real shanghainese, none of the glitz and glamour of Huaihai road, but the real working class, and how they live. that's the true shanghai.
i see kitty each day. playing in the back of the recyling cart in a tutu dress with fairy wings. what an image. the gritty grey walls, this old bike and cart, and this pink fairy happily playing.
these children don't have a backyard, wow, i am so spoilt as a nz'der....
but there is a lot one can find hidden in these tiny lanes...
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
same sun, different dawning points
winter is coming
i can see the smokey haze of the Shanghai sunset, behind the grey concrete sky-scrapers, making their windows sparkle and shimmer with orangey red colours. It's getting darker sooner and sooner, i think to myself as I look out the window of my bus home from school.
In the morning I wake up and the blindingly bright sun is not as evasive as I remember... but it's still the same sun as it was two months ago.
I looked out my little window by my bedroom this morning, and I saw the lady next door knitting inside the frame of her tiny window...like a mini theatre show, a picture perfect moment. It reminded me the morning before after I said my morning prayers, opening my eyes to the light and seeing her husband brushing his teeth in contemplation... Moments like that, I just soak up this place, it's sights and smells. Yes, I am in China. You have to choose what you want to focus on each day, you see the good the bad and the ugly, the sound of spitting really really irritates me so much, and I hear it most mornings... but I can choose not to focus on it, and look for the magic...its a daily battle...even in my attitude towards myself, towards being here...i keep thinking disaster thoughts 'I just want to go home. I just want the familiar. I just want to feel settled. I am lonely, its so hard, i'm out of my depth...blahblahblah'
but its a matter of attitude... and then GOLDEN moments happen. Each day is like a mini series of crisis and victory in my head...I plunge into depressive thoughts and then experience the most BEAUTIFUL of all moments, that make me think 'what is all the fuss about Chantelle?'
For example....
it never ceases to amaze me the open hearts and minds of people in this world.
take my landlady for example...
She came round the other night to teach me how to make shanghainese dumplings and i made an israeli 'tomato, cucumber, coriander and lemon juice' salad as my cultural offering...haha...
she doesnt speak any english
and i speak hardly any chinese
but we laughed
and had a great time
me fumbling and making a great mess trying to fill these dumplings using chopsticks...
later, as we were sitting on my couch, she saw my 'Baha'i' magazine on the table.
you can just sense when someone is genuinely interested...so i got out my laptop and showed her my bi-lingual Ana's presentation.
She then proceeded to teach me Chinese using Ana's presentation as the basis.
Painstakingly she would go through each sentence and then me repeat it. Then I would say the english version and she would copy. It was a beautiful beautiful experience. Both learning from each other in sooooo many ways!
We laughed as we both tried to sound out these foreign words...but then some words such as
'Baha'u'llah' were the same in both languages and we smiled at each other each time we said it...
After three hours of going through this presentation her husband, (who had been waiting outside all this time!!!) finally banged on the door and told her it was getting late and time to go. Again, we laughed as we realised the time, and I gave her a prayer book and an introductory book on the Baha'i Faith in chinese. She smiled that deep smile of hers, her face beaming, and her eyes sparkling as they did the first time I met her when I stepped into her apartment.
Then last night we met again for dinner. She said, (courtesy of a translator friend!)
"I was a Christian but after reading this book I know that I am a Baha'i. Because it is the same sun, only at a different angle on the horizon."
wow....i was in absolute awe. Here was my landlady, a beautiful Shanghainese woman of 62, a woman I have only met a few times, who had only just read a small booklet on the Faith a few days ago, now speaking nearly word for word what Abdul'Baha said nearly a hundred years ago, without even knowing it!
In 'Some Answered Questions' Abdul-Baha has said,
"Sometimes the sun rises from the center of the horizon, than in summer further north, in winter farther south - but it is always the self-same sun, however different are the points of its rising.
In like manner, truth is one, although its manifestations may be different. Some men have eyes and see. These worship the sun no matter from which point on the horizon it may dawn; and when the sun has left the winter sky to appear in the summer one, they know how to find it again. Others there are who worship only from the spot from which the sun arose, and when it arises in glory from another place they remain in contemplation of the spot of its former rising... Those who in truth adore the sun itself will recognise it from whatever dawning place it may appear, and will straight away turn their faces towards its radiance."
No wonder she has the most radiant face.
She loves the teachings about the equality of men and women. She told a funny story about a Japanese christian who came to their christian women's group to preach, and took a rather fundamentalist approach to marriage. She told them that, "You must obey your husbands. You have to do everything they tell you to do because they are the man, the head of the family, and you are their servants." My landlady strongly disagreed with this, and asked the "What happens if you husband does not know what he is talking about, and is stupid?" She caused a bit of a stir at the meeting...hehe. We had a great laugh about this!
She is now finding a group of her friends to start studing the Ruhi courses with.
As I sat in the back seat of the taxi home last night, looking at the night sky and the glittering lights of Shanghai, I said a prayer of gratitude in my mind....
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
for bringing me to these incredible souls whom I have so much to learn from, so free of judgement, so open and truth-seeking, thank you for allowing me to experience that...it helps sustain me, and it strengthens my own faith at the same time...
wow. awe. wonder.
sigh
i can see the smokey haze of the Shanghai sunset, behind the grey concrete sky-scrapers, making their windows sparkle and shimmer with orangey red colours. It's getting darker sooner and sooner, i think to myself as I look out the window of my bus home from school.
In the morning I wake up and the blindingly bright sun is not as evasive as I remember... but it's still the same sun as it was two months ago.
I looked out my little window by my bedroom this morning, and I saw the lady next door knitting inside the frame of her tiny window...like a mini theatre show, a picture perfect moment. It reminded me the morning before after I said my morning prayers, opening my eyes to the light and seeing her husband brushing his teeth in contemplation... Moments like that, I just soak up this place, it's sights and smells. Yes, I am in China. You have to choose what you want to focus on each day, you see the good the bad and the ugly, the sound of spitting really really irritates me so much, and I hear it most mornings... but I can choose not to focus on it, and look for the magic...its a daily battle...even in my attitude towards myself, towards being here...i keep thinking disaster thoughts 'I just want to go home. I just want the familiar. I just want to feel settled. I am lonely, its so hard, i'm out of my depth...blahblahblah'
but its a matter of attitude... and then GOLDEN moments happen. Each day is like a mini series of crisis and victory in my head...I plunge into depressive thoughts and then experience the most BEAUTIFUL of all moments, that make me think 'what is all the fuss about Chantelle?'
For example....
it never ceases to amaze me the open hearts and minds of people in this world.
take my landlady for example...
She came round the other night to teach me how to make shanghainese dumplings and i made an israeli 'tomato, cucumber, coriander and lemon juice' salad as my cultural offering...haha...
she doesnt speak any english
and i speak hardly any chinese
but we laughed
and had a great time
me fumbling and making a great mess trying to fill these dumplings using chopsticks...
later, as we were sitting on my couch, she saw my 'Baha'i' magazine on the table.
you can just sense when someone is genuinely interested...so i got out my laptop and showed her my bi-lingual Ana's presentation.
She then proceeded to teach me Chinese using Ana's presentation as the basis.
Painstakingly she would go through each sentence and then me repeat it. Then I would say the english version and she would copy. It was a beautiful beautiful experience. Both learning from each other in sooooo many ways!
We laughed as we both tried to sound out these foreign words...but then some words such as
'Baha'u'llah' were the same in both languages and we smiled at each other each time we said it...
After three hours of going through this presentation her husband, (who had been waiting outside all this time!!!) finally banged on the door and told her it was getting late and time to go. Again, we laughed as we realised the time, and I gave her a prayer book and an introductory book on the Baha'i Faith in chinese. She smiled that deep smile of hers, her face beaming, and her eyes sparkling as they did the first time I met her when I stepped into her apartment.
Then last night we met again for dinner. She said, (courtesy of a translator friend!)
"I was a Christian but after reading this book I know that I am a Baha'i. Because it is the same sun, only at a different angle on the horizon."
wow....i was in absolute awe. Here was my landlady, a beautiful Shanghainese woman of 62, a woman I have only met a few times, who had only just read a small booklet on the Faith a few days ago, now speaking nearly word for word what Abdul'Baha said nearly a hundred years ago, without even knowing it!
In 'Some Answered Questions' Abdul-Baha has said,
"Sometimes the sun rises from the center of the horizon, than in summer further north, in winter farther south - but it is always the self-same sun, however different are the points of its rising.
In like manner, truth is one, although its manifestations may be different. Some men have eyes and see. These worship the sun no matter from which point on the horizon it may dawn; and when the sun has left the winter sky to appear in the summer one, they know how to find it again. Others there are who worship only from the spot from which the sun arose, and when it arises in glory from another place they remain in contemplation of the spot of its former rising... Those who in truth adore the sun itself will recognise it from whatever dawning place it may appear, and will straight away turn their faces towards its radiance."
No wonder she has the most radiant face.
She loves the teachings about the equality of men and women. She told a funny story about a Japanese christian who came to their christian women's group to preach, and took a rather fundamentalist approach to marriage. She told them that, "You must obey your husbands. You have to do everything they tell you to do because they are the man, the head of the family, and you are their servants." My landlady strongly disagreed with this, and asked the "What happens if you husband does not know what he is talking about, and is stupid?" She caused a bit of a stir at the meeting...hehe. We had a great laugh about this!
She is now finding a group of her friends to start studing the Ruhi courses with.
As I sat in the back seat of the taxi home last night, looking at the night sky and the glittering lights of Shanghai, I said a prayer of gratitude in my mind....
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
for bringing me to these incredible souls whom I have so much to learn from, so free of judgement, so open and truth-seeking, thank you for allowing me to experience that...it helps sustain me, and it strengthens my own faith at the same time...
wow. awe. wonder.
sigh
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